我没目标，不懂长到后要做什么工，好像根本都是不切实际的吧。
我想要很精彩的人生但现在刚好相反。
读书是浪费时间，因为我在读我长大不想做的工。
我很不想一直做着我不爱的工到老。
很多人都已知道长大想做什么了，而且都很实际的。
想到自己不切实际的梦想。。。就惨。。。根本不会实现吧。
我从某时开始这样我也忘了。。

看来，我要去逃避现实了。。等下去表哥家吧。。。至少能开心下才掉回来。。。好过一直不开心。
我很不喜欢时间流逝得这么快。。No Control。
不管现在想为未来做什么都做不了。。Refrain。

我会常羡慕别人，因为我好想跟他们一样，但我做不到。
现在我想走的路是哪一条？
不论说了多久，依然问回我自己。
我很讨厌脑里会一片空白。
人们读了这片文章，一定说我是个消极悲观的人。
妹妹会鼓励我，但一切都是短暂的。。
我知道妹妹会一直希望我们能一起开心，我知道。
妹妹也知道哥哥还是不开心。
哥哥是真的没办法。

我会这样写因该是因为我在别人面前说不出口吧。
至少我还有留下一些我活过的证明。(妹妹别担心）
现在是17岁。

啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊，说这些没用的东西！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！

~还在幻想中沉睡着的人~

P.S. : Sorry for those who read english only, I've chosen to write in chinese．

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'' 我们慢慢来 ^_^ ''。。。听到这句话，我会感到很欣慰。。
妹妹已经是哥哥的了，哈哈哈 ^ o ^

Already seen the full video of Blue Flame, thanks to my sister > u <.
But, I still have to wait for a months plus for my order to arrive, fuuu  ~ 3 ~

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今天上了第一次的日本课。。。虽然也一样没有熟人，但我还是觉得很开心。。
而当我放课后，我走过一个演讲厅，便发现我的日本课外活动的人们在那边。
他们都很热情呢 ^_^
虽然不能读我喜欢的本科。。。（其实。。。我也不知道自己喜欢什么。。。只想的到组团吧。。。）但至少还有些能让我开心一点的东西啊。。

I have my first Japanese lesson today! Although there is no familliar people as usual but I'm really happy..
After my lessons, I went past the lecture theatre that I was finding for holding the Japan Tsubasa CCA!
I went up and told them when would the CCA for me commence and they approached me happily.
I think I will be able to make good friends in both of these Activity.
Although I can't study the main subject that I like...(but actually...I don't really know what I like...(can only think of forming rockband...) but at least there is something that would brightens up my mood...even if its a little..

Dolly - ムーンライトディスコ [Moonlight Disco]

My parent...especially my mother...don't even know anything or put in any effort to understand what I'm going through.
Is she really my mother? I'm thankful for her doing all the house chores, even though I did not express it out.
But, she keeps scolding and scolding, saying how she is doing all these in vain and how useless his son is.
What I need is the support for me to face my future...but my mother only know how to scold and keep rattle on how I'm so lazy and useless...
When I told her about how I may want to change my course if my current course is not doing well...(I'm already feel like changing immediately but I can't)...and she just scold me immediately!
She did not ask why or anything but she just scold me saying that I'm wasting my parent money...
I don't want to say anymore...to me now, I only have my sister...that is all I have.

光

昨晚睡觉时，我心里突然感到非常恐惧明天要上学。。不知不觉会喊出来，又想哭，但哭不出。

然后当我看我的电话时，发现有简讯。。
当我打开简讯看。。是我的妹妹发来的！．．．在这时候。。妹妹还特地发简讯给我。。。
我看到妹妹的简讯时是很兴奋的，但我心里还想着害怕的事。。所以没有好好的回复妹妹。
我真的很开心你能在我低潮时给我这种支持 ^_^
但妹妹也是害怕。。却还能鼓励我。。。妹妹，希望你也不要害怕，我们互相支持。

看到妹妹的第二个简讯时，我心里真的好多了！
我就一直看着妹妹的简讯便睡着了。。。
但我不断的在睡中醒来，而一醒来时，我的害怕又马上回来 Q_Q
然后，我又看着妹妹的简讯再回去睡。。。重复了几次。。

无论如何，我都要感谢妹妹这么的关心我！
我们就一起面对在前方的*　黑暗 。

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小时候，我在玩悄悄板时被一个玩皮的同学伤到鼻子。

他很大力地摇，让我撞到鼻子流血。。。

我现在长大了，鼻子还不难看吧？ 哈。

When I was small, while playing See-Saw, a naughty kid shake the See-Saw violently and my nose got hit hard by it and my nose bleed.

Now, I've grown up, my nose's shape is still not so bad right? haha.

Alice Nine New Look : Blue Flame

Always love Shou's new look.

安全感

现在想到要去新学校，心里一直还有着 ＇怕，怕，怕 ＇的感觉。
上学就很想快点放学。。

只有跟妹妹讲话，听妹妹的意见，才会让我感到安心。。
我要牵着妹妹的手走下去。
虽然我对我的未来还有所害怕，但我会带着妹妹的鼓励来面对。
我也希望我的鼓励能让妹妹觉得安心 ~ * U *

如果真的能跟妹妹上学，一起读就最好了。。
我只需要妹妹，一个了解我的人在我身边就够了。。这样会很贪心吗。。


我也不想妹妹老是听哥哥的诉苦。。。想让妹妹听开心的事。。
O ＿＿＿ O
但我人生就是这样子。。。希望妹妹不会嫌弃。


P.S. : 我的学校没有我要的音乐团课外活动，糟糕，没团组了，美梦泡汤了 x-x
         My new school don't have any jrock band as CCA for me to join,
         my sweet dream is ruined x-x

最近要上学了， 每次回来家里都觉得很累。。。
就在早早， 我只想躺一下， 但一躺就差不多快３个小时！？
幸好不是马上到明天早上呢 ( : O

~就这样。。。日子过着～

Is studying the only way to go in Singapore?
I'm really worried life will just be like this for me...
After studying my polytechnic, hotel & leisure facilities management, go army and then work after coming out from army...
Well, I went to Resort World Singapore today, the hotels are all quite beautiful...thinking of taking photos but my  handphone 's battery is going low, so I can't take any.
Well, I still don't feel so happy going school, even though its a little better than first day.
I really hope I can play Japanese musics as a Jrock band , but I think my current school don't have any....so I join the Japanese cosplay, culture & manga CCA instead.

How I wish, I could have someone who will go through the same life with me...same school and course with me forever, can share my woe especially like this period...
But, I don't.
All I have now is my sister's support to go on everyday...

我好讨厌今天开学。。。我好像很难跟别人勾通。。。
今天跟我班的人突然走散，但我也不想跟他们一起啦。。。
就在厕所和少人的熟食中心两边徘徊。。。听着妹妹那两首镜音的歌。。。
还真不想回去学校呢。。。但明天又要去。。。到这么晚才能回家。。。
但妹妹。。。当我看到你的简讯时是超级开心的。。。真的很谢谢你。。。（抱）

妹妹，我好紧张喔。。。明天要去新的环境。。。让我抱住你睡吧。。。明天考试加有哦！

The Everlasting Beauty

I love to walk alone at these places at this time...so peaceful....hah....

School starts officially tomorrow... Work Hard!!  ~ 3 ~

Thinking carefully now, I can only make friends with people on the surface, when it comes deeper, it is not possible at all.
This is the real answer to anybody...I only see things that is real in front of my eyes.
No more faking or bluffing myself.

the GazettE Tokyo Dome 1

Wow the intro music...it sounds like Lucifer Call 's music !

Fuck, I have gone astray again...well who cares.
Anyway, I'm sick and tired of all these things that I will eventually gone through in life.
What going to NS, study, then work & die later...life is just so fucking boring!
I hate how this world is now...everything just sucks...just decompose already.
If end of the world is going to happen next year, I will not feel sad or anything, it is just a finally rest in peace for me.

I hate myself for not able to speak for myself...whenever this happens, I feel that I'm so useless sometimes.
Furthermore, such an extremely careless accident occurs today while I'm working...hope he has deleted all those images....ew.

The GazettE - VORTEX PV

Watch it before it is deleted people!!

My blog's top 3 country visitors :
1 - Singapore
2 - Taiwan
3 - United States

Thanks everyone from these countries!!
Other country's people, come often to be promoted!

P.S. : Thank you sister, for visiting often.



我的部落格，前三名来探望的国家 ：
1 - 新加坡
2 - 台湾
3 - 美国


谢谢大家的支持，起它国家若要上榜就要更常来！

P.S. : 我知道妹妹是台湾代表，谢谢咯 ^o^

昨天晚上睡觉时，我抱着皮卡丘一起睡。。。而我一直感受到妹妹还在哭，很心痛。。
妹妹。。。你不要离开我哦。。。我也不会离开你了。

我开门咯。。。进来，跟我一起吧。
不要伤心。。我很迟钝。。。到了不久我才发现我所说的那些话会让你这么伤心。。。我很想收回那些话。。
我不会让你独自承受那些悲伤的，我们一起承担。

我们就一起走下去吧~

Dolly - 時の列車

I wanted to put this song as my blog music now, but because its the GazettE theme, I don't think I should put it.

Anyway...like this song title, I want to take a time train and travel forever in the train back and forth in this world....never ending.

Anything is futile, the scar will be there forever.

the GazettE new look : VORTEX

the GazettE new look for their latest single ''VORTEX''.

My hair shape now is quite like a shorter version of this, but I like it a lot.

The problem is, I still don't know if my hair sides to the left or right...ugh....its been so long and I still don't know which side look the best for me.

I can and I will only fight on my own now, no one can really enter my world . . . no one..
I will become stronger.

Namie Amuro - Fight Together (English Lyrics)

Let’s head out before night becomes dawn

let’s go to face the unknown tomorrow

I’ve already decided to have no regrets

(Oh I know what I’m supposed to do)

my heart can’t help getting excited

over the kind of trials awaiting us

there’s only one place we’re aiming for

(Fly to the light)

our bond won at the end of the fight

we won’t let anyone get hurt

if you open your tightly clutched hands

you’ll find there is power dwelling inside

come on, time to go

the new world is calling us

hey, don’t you see

we’ll always be there for each other

no matter how many seas separate us

don’t be afraid of what’s ahead

because don’t forget

We fight together

we’ve never hurt each other

we’ve come a long way

from the days we looked up

at the high, spacious sky

with each oath in our hearts

we won’t lose ourselves

to the burdens we carry

the rising sun

even shines on our pain

I have faith

someday, let’s go find the future

that’ll bind us as one, together

you are irreplaceable to me

so don’t forget

We fight together

I will keep a lookout for similar clothing now  ^_^

My current hair length, hope it can grow longer ^ A ^

I think this hair is good, hope to get my hair shape like this soon @_@

P.S. : Don't think I like Korea because I posted about Kim Jyong Hyun, I hate Korea musics

JS Photo Time

Nice experience to walk along the streets like this with friends everyday...when night falls, my feelings will also          
be different...sometimes I will feel so in awe of natural changes that takes place everyday, feelings that are hard to put into words...

若能每次跟朋友一起在这街上走逛应该很不错。。。
当夜晚来临时，我的心情也会跟着有些变化。。。我有时候会因为这些自然的变化而感到敬畏。。。这种感觉是难以用话来形容的。。。

谢谢你

我第一次碰到想你这样的女孩，我头头说出那些话时，心里一直感到很矛盾，害怕会有不好的反应，但我也很想看你的反应。。。同时我也觉得自己很懦弱。明明很不想你走，却还硬想把你推开。。。
在工作时，我也一直很在意你的回复会是什么。。
当我回来看到时。。。我的心里真的很感动。。。
我一直不信任任何人，尤其是网上的，通常只是聊聊罢了。。。可能是因为我在初中时被那些坏同学欺负，让我看到，很多人的不好，甚至是在旁看的女生也不会帮忙，有的还一起弄。
但也因为这样，我开始把所有事情都靠自己做,坏事也只收在自己心里.

我一直坚持着只想把我心房打开给我的女朋友。。。所以我一直在等。
但我没想到妹妹会是那个帮助我的人。
现在我了解了，我真的很幸福能认识妹妹你。
你就像一个小天使一样，照顾着你身边和身名中对你很重要的人。我也要相同的照顾妹妹。。。永远。。。真的。

I will just let nature takes its course...I will just do things that are given to me, even though what I said isn't what I want sometimes... thinking about this, makes me feel angry about myself.
Anyway, death is an inevitable things for all human, regardless of how fortunate or how unfortunate one is. Its probably just the intensity thats different, and the life a person has went through.
But, the ending point is the same for all.

...(cry)...I can't control my tears...I will try not to recall these stuffs again...

陳曉東 - 比我幸福

...so sad...reminds me of the time when I love you...

妹妹，真的很想你。。。惨了。。XP

真怕如果我去当兵不是更想你。。。我真不喜欢分开太久的感觉。。。但这不是妹妹的错，是我的性格吧。。。

P.S. : 超爱我的新外套 ^_^

SHOXX Vol. 219 : Versailles

Found out that there are people searching for Versailles's info on SHOXX Vol.219.

Hope posting these photos helped those who wants to see~

Yuya 's Official Site tab is added to my blog! Do visit the site when you are free~

Tsuguki 's Birthday

Happy Birthday Tsuguki! I love Dolly so much, I will always support the band's music!
Though, I hope you can sell your CDs at Singapore too xD
Anyway, hope you enjoy your birthday, cute-babyface & talented Tsuguki !

Yuya Matsushita's new single ''Naturally'' is great! I love his new costume, going to buy clothes like those soon( I got my pay ! ), enjoy his new PV for the new single at my blog!
On the other hand, I will miss my sister these upcoming days...quite long...around 5 days?
She has gone to perform during her school holidays, but I'm so proud of her, I think she will make it big in the music scene over there. Thanks for loving me so much sister, I will try my best in doing things too!
妹妹，我爱你～ ^o^

I'm actually quite confused sometimes... I don't know what I should expect from the future.
Honestly, I'm quite worried of my future, I'm worried that it would not turned out to be what I really want and deserves. I don't really know what I want sometimes, things get complicated, and I just wish things could be like how it is now. But actually, thats not what I really wanted either...
I think I lack the strength for me to face the change in life..